The Captured Sun .. The Mystery ruins ..

The broken down walls ..
The moss laden bricks ..
What, you ask did I hope to find there ??
Come walk the way with me again ..
Not a word will I utter .. not a thought will you think ..
Yet, once there u will know .. you will simply know !!


-- DEVIKKA BANTAWA

Waiting for the mist to clear (in my head)
And the waves to roll back (with the words that I wrongly said)


A new path to form
Those forgotten footsteps yet to fade


The bud into a rose to bloom
Your smile till the eyes to spread


Oh yeah I wait


For the seasons to change
Luck from yellow to green to red


The whistle to blow
The hour to strike


Clouds to meet, the rain to shower
The work to finish, the gloom to move over


Don't we all wait ?


The first cry, the last minute miracle
For soul mates to meet, trophies and medals to achieve


The sunshine once again, after the long dreary days
Presents to open, the skies to tame


The wonder to begin, the disbelief to disappear
History to rewrite and life to create


Know thyself, live it till the very end
For even the dragonfly will stop fluttering its wings


-- Devikka Bantawa

Yes, there so many things I need to do, to complete, to accomplish, to experience, to enjoy ..
The list is endless, the activities plenty, some thoughts unique ..
A couple are mundane, a few essential, many downright outrageous ..
Guess, its time that I begin making a bucket-list too and plan towards checking them one by one ..
Seems exciting now, when things are just being planned in my head (that is always the easiest thing to do) need to get started 1st, because for me, its not maintaining the momentum but get the beginning going !!
And yes just because I'm talking about a "Things to get done in Life" list, it doesn't mean that time is running short, its just that I have suddenly realised that I have whiled away a good part of my life, simply lived it one day at a time by default ..
So here I go putting it all down here, as a witness for myself, a reminder to the "procrastinator me", a promise to the "child" in me, that yes, that list is worthwhile and if I slowly but gradually tick the items one by one, it will bring great pleasure, delight and a sense of pride in me !!

-- Devikka Bantawa

Love when its abused
Trust broken, leaving
You feeling all used inside!
Energy sapped, precious emotions spent


Hate suddenly brims up
Unseen, once dormant
Now red, ugly, heated
Triggered, volcanic, lethal


Seeing happy couples around
Hand in hand enjoying
Laughing, touching, caring
And one looks back
At the wondrous moments shared
Hot passion, innocence snared


Unfathomable - the act, the pretense
The sham longing displayed
When from the beginning
It was only a shoddy game essayed


Letters torn, blocked on FB
Abuses hurled, dirty mud-slinging
Haunting, consuming rage
A crippling feeling
Leaving one from all corners frayed


Friends we were - inseparable, wild, free
And could have till the end been
If only you had not
Taken the chance
To toy with my fragile being and heart !


-- Devikka Bantawa

My heart leaps a little
The smile a wee bit shy
But my eyes are gleefully twinkling
Pretty face with Love all sparkling


I can't figure out what's happening suddenly
Surely my world's changing slowly
Find myself, laughing more, doubting less
Yes, I'm enjoying this chaotic mess !!


Now I hum my favorite song
As the mundane tasks I stroll along
The wind whispers sweet-nothings in my eager ears
Making you feel always to me near
Delightful images I can spot in the sky
And your musky smell in the sudden soft breeze
Oh lemme savor these fleeting moments
Stop and till eternity make them freeze


Sudden was your step into my buzzing life
(Close friends meet-ups & family dramas, addictive FB and umpteen tweets)
Yet in my head, as I toss it over and over
It was destined, I believe, that we meet


So high on passion, crazily in Love
Our coming together seems as a blessing from above
The match is perfect, the missing link complete

Best is the way, our mind trips
To each other's Heartbeats !!


-- Devikka Bantawa

The tears continued to roll down
With a will of their own
They spelled of broken hearts
And shattered dreams
Of promises not kept
Clever lies and cheats

No words came forth
So battered was the spirit
Too shocked and numb
Trust - could she ever feel it again ?

Those whispers in the dark
Castles gleefully built in the air
Thread by thread
The fantasies that were shared

Her body felt weak
The mind even more
All she wanted was to let go
Sink into oblivion
Crawl back into the safe womb
Away from all deception and pain

The tears streamed down freely onto her pillow
Leaving dirty trails on rosy cheeks
All will, all tenderness frozen

Slowly sobs escaped her lips
Silent screams, helpless rage
Cutting into her honest soul
And as sadness caressed her to sleep
She knew ..
Love ?
No, she just couldn't Love again !!


-- Devikka Bantawa